Archive | August, 2011

Our Story :) (i obviously can’t write a song…)

31 Aug

She loved him, he loved her. She thought he didn’t like her, he thought she didn’t like him. She didn’t tell him anything, he didn’t tell her anything. She thought he had someone else in his life, he thought she had someone else in her life. They didn’t express their feelings, and stayed just good friends, for many years.

They were both young when they first saw each other (though there were no lights, party or ball-gown to see 😉 ). They met after their SLC examination, during bridge course class. It was as if fate had put them together in same class. Actually she had not meant to join that institute, she had gone to visit the neighboring one but a twist in events (read Destiny) took her to the one where she met him ♥. It wasn't love at first sight, not even close. In fact, it took her days to know his name (though she thought he was cute even before knowing his name 😉 )! They had separate circle of friends so didn't talk with each other during those days. But, even without speaking, they had sweet moments which later on became unforgettable memories. One of them being the visit to a college and her teasing him (he was so shy). Then there were those glances and few exchanged smiles (don't know if he remembers it), meeting him unexpectedly on the way once, the checked exam papers, the very VERY horrible picture he drew for her (really horrible, i mean it) and other moments which can't be expressed by words. But, at that time, she wasn't in love with him. For her, he was a crush, a huge crush but not her love.

After their class ended, they never met. There were no sweet words or moments of farewell, they just went their separate ways, separate fields of study and separate colleges. The only communication they had after the bridge course classes were few phone calls (there were no mobile phones for messaging)! And, as for mails and chats, well he simply didn't reply :(. So, for two years, they were totally out of touch, but she seen him twice on the way during that time (it was just a glance but she knew it was him and as she was going to her college, there was no chance of going up to him and starting a conversation). Sometimes when she saw someone wearing a shirt of the same color or the same print (just once) as he had worn, she would smile for no reason. At times like this, she used to wonder if he remembered her like this as well, if he ever thought about her. But, even at that time, she considered him only her crush. Then everything changed.

They were together again :). Well together in the sense that they started talking again. The story of how it happened is another long tale. It was unplanned, she hadn’t asked for his number, he hadn’t asked hers (he had even sounded angry when she first called him, at least that’s how he sounded to her) but they were back in contact. Then everything went on like it should have, it was like a dream. A day without calling or texting him felt incomplete. Her inbox was filled with his messages, she used to read and re-read and re-read the messages wondering if he did the same. But she never told him how she felt, she was scared that he would stop talking to her if she did. How could she know that he felt the same way without him telling her. So they both remained silent on that matter and just talked about other things. It felt like they used to talk about nothing, there used to be those long conversations and when she thought of what they talked about, she couldn’t remember the specific things. The words just seem to flow, they would be talking about one thing and about a completely different thing a moment later. His habit of changing the things being discussed never changed, it’s still the same and she loves that. She used to get that unexplainable happiness whenever she talked to him. But, that happiness was soon snatched away :(. He stopped talking to her, ignored her completely. It was as if she didn’t exist for him. She couldn’t figure out what had she done to make him move away from her. Before that period, before he started acting like she didn’t matter to him, she was so sure that he also felt the same way about her. But, afterwards even the thought of that seemed impossible. After weeks that seemed like years, he himself started speaking to her again. That shocked her as much as his ignoring her had done. But then he would talk to her whenever he wanted and go back to ignoring her when he didn’t want. She didn’t know the reason behind that and couldn’t ask him as well. So, it was automatically assumed by her mind that he simply didn’t like her and didn’t want to even be friends with her :(! Well obviously anyone would have felt that way. That went on for weeks and months and then he really left 😦 (and didn’t even bother to tell her the date of his departure himself 😦 😦 😦 ).

Even after all that, she couldn’t get over him (and it turns out he couldn’t as well). They were on speaking terms but there used to be periods when they had no any form of communication. She always tried to tell herself that she should not wait for him, they weren’t meant to be. But how could she win over her own heart! All it took was one word from him or a single thought or something distantly related to him or any any any other thing to make her unable to get away from him. It’s said whenever you think of letting go, think of all the reasons that made you hold on for so long. And, there was the most important reason that made her hold on to him. Hearing the word ‘love’ reminded her of him and made her hope it would remind him of her someday. How could she know that ‘someday’ was everyday :)! She tried a lot to not think about him, even tried to think of others and forget about him but all that effort was worthless. Thinking about actually being with someone else was not even a thought. It was like with him she could she her future, with other people, there seemed no possibility of a future. “Eight letters, three words, say it and i’ll be yours”, this was a line she could totally relate to, kept waiting and waiting to hear those words from him.

Finally finally finally, he finally thought it would be appropriate to tell her how he felt :). After years of waiting, finally they knew how they felt about each other. She couldn’t believe it at first; him having the same feelings was something that had happened only in her thoughts. It felt almost too good to be true and that used to scare her, scare her with the thoughts that someday he would say that was just a prank or something might happen and his feelings would change. But this wasn’t a prank or a temporary feeling :). After years of waiting, they are finally together now (not in distance though). And, with him, everything just seems right. Sure there are arguments, discussions and fights but that’s what makes their relationship stronger. It will be few more months before they can see each other (too hard to wait 😦 ). She keeps on wondering why hadn’t they told each other sooner, what that would have been like! What if she had told him her feelings earlier, what if he had been able to guess how she felt, so many what-ifs. But, whatever happens now, they have each other and that’s all that matters. Life is so so so beautiful :)!